Still Alive

I feel awful for how badly I've been neglecting my DA account lately.
In past habit, i would check it every other day if I were being particularly lazy, but of late, unable to work on any art of my own, I just don't feel inspired to drop by more than once a week or so.
And I still love all the art made by the lovely people I watch!  I do!
I just end up feeling sad and stressed after visiting DA though, because I still can't use my right hand, and my left can barely keep up with the drawing I do for work, and certainly can't handle the stress of personal art on top of that...as it is, at this point I often end up spending my evenings alternating ice packs between my right and left, just trying to keep my left functional.

Ugh, someone play me 'My Heart Bleeds for You' on the worlds smallest violin, please?  

I'm sorry for all the whining.  I just haven't been able to work on personal art since early July, and it's making me miserable.  I can't do the one thing in the world I love doing and that makes me happy.  I need to call the ortho specialist again today and let him know that another month has passed and my hand still isn't back to normal, but I don't even know if there is anything TO do about it...the only thing that I've heard sometimes can really do anything is a cortisone shot directly into the effected area, but that only helps sometimes, and comes with a boat-load of side effects, and at least 2 people have warned me off of that course of action.  

So.

Anyway, yeah I'm still alive, but I just haven't been around much because i can't contribute anything and i just want to make art and I can't and I hate everything.